Putting up the good fight...

It's September. I have a game plan. I made this plan back in May. Most people know that I can not for the life of me handle this weather in Seattle. I never anticipated it when I moved up here...but it happened. I hate it when people tell me the weather is fine and that I'll adjust. It's been over 4 years and I have not adjusted!

If most people know me, they'll also know I went into a horrible depression because of the weather. Mostly. But it got bad. I've never been clinically depressed and it's an awful thing to go through. Ever see those Cymbalta commercials where it's in Grey and White and the person is just sitting there on the bed looking down & staring out into space? Or in the bathroom just blankly looking at themselves in the mirror? It occupies their whole day. That was me, for a long time, that was me. And I don't EVER want to be there again.

So after breastfeeding I started on 5 HTP, which is a homeopathic anti-depressant. I started to feel better. Not back to the old me, but not living in grey & white anymore.

So the Game Plan:
Prepping for the dark, dreary cold days ahead, which for me start about mid-Sept to mid-June. That's a long time to battle depression every year.

So I'm upping my pills dosage, now taking 50mg each in the morning and the evening (used to be just the evening), I'm taking a Vitamin D liquid supplement threes times a day, and I just got my work to buy me a S.A.D lamp for my desk. Hopefully it won't be as bad this year...and my lamp is arriving on the 9th - I'm super excited about it!

But as I tell my husband: I can't believe I have to take all this stuff just to live here...And still not 100% myself.